Stupid Me

I am really regret of what i have just did. I really shouldn't be influence by my own feeling. Why I did the thing I did? It hurts me even deeper. That is the last thing that i need now. Since the day that I made that decision, I should be very clear of the consequences. Why i still holding on? It is time to let go. Time to say goodbye and start anew. Just like the old saying goes, let bygones be bygones.

I can't always sit here and wait for miracle to happen. Waiting for miracle is just like waiting for RAIN during draught season. I'm tired of waiting. I don't believe in miracle and I don't want to believe in it anymore. It is very disappointed when you are hoping for miracle and eventually it never happen. I am like putting my future in the hand of other. Hoping that the other person can create a better future for you.

Things started off very smoothly. Miracles did happened one after another... And I slowly change to be more and more dependent. Until I have turned into someone that i couldn't recognise anymore. I hated it so much. I can't stand it anymore.

I swore to myself that I will let go of everything. No more turning back. I have chose my own way. Be firm with this decision... Hopefully, it will leads me to the place that I wanted to...