I am Stress

I feel ok until 3 hours ago where i suddenly feel tense all over my body. Suddenly, I realized that, I do not have much time left for me to prepare for my final exam. 5 subjects, 10 days left. I hate it to study last minute. It is very suffering... but what choice do i have? This semester is really a tough one. The 14-week of studying passed by as fast as lightning. With just a glance, study week is coming. During this whole semester, I was busy with assignments, mid-term tests and other assessments. I hardly have time for breathing... Life is tough and it become even tougher now.

I really need to find back the motivation to keep me going. Some says, chocolate can help to make you feel calm. Some suggest to take a long shower to relax. But what I did? Blogging here to release my stress. Hope tomorrow will be better. I can't afford to waste any time as I am already lacking one.

Stupid Me

I am really regret of what i have just did. I really shouldn't be influence by my own feeling. Why I did the thing I did? It hurts me even deeper. That is the last thing that i need now. Since the day that I made that decision, I should be very clear of the consequences. Why i still holding on? It is time to let go. Time to say goodbye and start anew. Just like the old saying goes, let bygones be bygones.

I can't always sit here and wait for miracle to happen. Waiting for miracle is just like waiting for RAIN during draught season. I'm tired of waiting. I don't believe in miracle and I don't want to believe in it anymore. It is very disappointed when you are hoping for miracle and eventually it never happen. I am like putting my future in the hand of other. Hoping that the other person can create a better future for you.

Things started off very smoothly. Miracles did happened one after another... And I slowly change to be more and more dependent. Until I have turned into someone that i couldn't recognise anymore. I hated it so much. I can't stand it anymore.

I swore to myself that I will let go of everything. No more turning back. I have chose my own way. Be firm with this decision... Hopefully, it will leads me to the place that I wanted to...

My Way

I always thought that I could never face this alone. Perhaps, I'm too used to depend on another people. I don't know where do I find the courage to finally say no. From that moment, I decided to choose another path of life which will lead me to a very different ending. I don't know is this the correct way. I don't know will i regret someday. What I am sure is that, I know exactly what I am doing now.

I know that I am being selfish. In order to get what I want, I have hurt the person that I care the most. I'm really very sorry for that. I wanted to apologize but I do not know how to face him. I have the courage to choose this way but yet I do not have the courage to ask for forgiveness. There is nothing I can do now except to move forward and never look back. Hopefully, time will heals everything.

Look Out Point

I always like to go to nice places. And i thought that Kl is all about concrete buildings, lights, cars and lot and lot of people. It is until i went to this place with a magnificent view which melt my heart. Look Out Point!!!


Credit to photographer Lee Chung Lern

Now i feel that KL is actually a very nice city. The cool breeze gently caressing ur face... The feeling is so right. I feel rejuvenated again... haha.

i'm having a good time with my friends.



Now i feel that, everything do have it's own good point, but it depend greatly from which angle you look at it. The big city that I thought is crowded with so many concrete stuff is actually look so nice from a high place. This concept applies to all.