False Eyelashes

I'm very free and got nothing to do yesterday. Thought of going "cheong k" but they don't want to entertain me. So I decided to play make up. hehe... I've bought a set of false eyelashes. However, I never try on it nor put it up on myself before.So this is first trial.... :-)
This is how my eyes look like without any make up.



It's actually quite small and look like not energetic at all... sleepy eyes.... ZzZZZZZZzZZzZZzZZZzZZ.................

It's fun to play with make up. haha... i slowly measure the lashes and cut the additional part. Then put the glue and slowly stick it to my eye. It feels itchy at first, but after several blink, then it feel ok.
So wanna see how big my eyes become after that???



Here is the difference with or without make up....

Time to Change

Suddenly, i feel like i've been trapped in my own little world for such a long time. I never realise that. In my world, i saw everyone and everything. However, i finally come to realise that, i was trapped. And now i wanna break the glass that surround me. This glass create all the illusion and making me so confuse. I wanna step out from this lonely world. I don't want to be someone that is so useless anymore. I want to get myself out of here, bravely. I will face the world on my own. I don't wanna rely on anybody now. Cuz they might make me disappointed. But if i rely on myself, and i fail. This will be the motivation for me to push myself even harder to stand up tall by my own feet. I dont want to be a loser anymore. I want to be myself.

Model

I'm having so much fun today. I woke up early in the morning, travelled from Subang to Ampang to meet my photographer, Khal. At first, i'm very nervous as this is my first time to go for photoshooting. Thanks god, it turns out to be a wonderful experience. The first moment i meet Khal, he gave me a warm feeling. I really appreciate his sincerity and hardwork. He really a very professional photographer. We're having so much fun together, and he seems like he does too.

What i've learnt from this experience? Uhm,quite alot. First of all, now i know it's not easy to be a model. You know what, it's very hard to do so many posing and different facial expression. I really feel like i'm a noob at posing and i really dunno how to express myself. However, i really learnt some skill now. And it's fun. Especially when i have to do some sexy pose and i have to show my face that i'm sexy. This is the hardest part. How am i going to show sexy using only my face????
all this while, i thought sexy is just about wearing less??? Hope i can get my photo soon so that i can upload it here.

Such a Misery Blog

Whenever i was down, sad n torn apart, i will turn to my blog. This is the place for me to release everything. All my sadness or anger. I just hope that my blog will be filled it with more joy, happiness and good news. But once again, this post is not a good 1. I'm feeling very down again. why? 2 things that are on my mind. 1 is family another one is relationship.

My aunt had turned my family up-side-down now. She came over to our place to stay for a couple of days. But me and my siblings really can't stand her attitute. She always complain alot and causes my mom to get angry at us. Especially my brother. How i wish my aunt can faster go back to her own place. just leave my family alone. We don't need an outsider to tell us how we need to behave. i think my parents had raise us very well.

Now relationship. I just start to wonder is he really ready to get committed. After all these time, now only i question this. But he really make me feel like he is better off if he is single. It's not like he need me now. sweat...sweat.